State of the Union
The other state of the union that the title refers to is the union between Master and me. We had a rough moment this afternoon. It was my doing. We were talking about when I might be moving there, and I said I wasn't sure I wanted to move there as early as May because then I'd be home all summer with the kids while He's at work. Then we got into a big discussion about whether or not I'm making the right decision and if I'm making too much of this. We both got upset, and then I had to leave for a bit - my stupid puter tends to shut down on me if I'm on it too long. I took the time to run a couple errands and do some good thinking, and I came to two conclusions. First is that, if I move there in May, and I'm home all day (since I won't be able to work right away) with the kids while they're out of school, and they drive me absolutely crazy, it will still mean that I'm there with my Master, instead of a couple thousand miles away talking to Him on a computer. My second conclusion was that, in the end, I shouldn't even be worrying about this. I'm obviously still learning about how to fully submit to my Master and really give everything up to Him. All I really have to do is tell Him everything and obey His commands, and let Him deal with the rest. I'm so fortunate to have a patient Master that knows that I'm still learning, and allows me to figure some of this out on my own, so it actually hits home a little better that way. So the rest of the afternoon and now tonight has been really good for us. Whenever we work through something like this, it always brings us closer. It makes me feel even more submissive to Him, and strengthens His ownership of me. So, I would say that the state of our union is pretty darn good tonight. :)
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