Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Katie's leaving Today, I'm leaving tomorrow

This is Katie Couric's last morning on the Today show. Do I ever normally watch the Today show? No. Did I watch some this morning? Yes. Is my life going to change because Katie's leaving the show? No. Did I cry anyway? Yes, because I'm a big sap. Kids, be careful what you tease your parents about! I used to give my mom a hard time because she would cry over the drop of a hat. And now... I have become my mother. Well, about this, anyway.

I'm leaving tomorrow to go to my mom's in Ohio for the weekend. I'm going straight to the airport after work. My best friend's little brother is getting married on Saturday, so she and I are going to attend. When I first heard he was getting married, I didn't think I would bother going, just because I wasn't particularly close to him. But then I got to thinking about the fact that I would get to see my best friend and all of her family. I haven't seen any of them in three years, some of them longer than that. My best friend, who I call Jiffy, has a little girl who's about 18 months whom I've never seen! Her older brother, who was also a good friend of mine, got married last year and I've never met his wife. (The wedding was in Oregon and I didn't get to attend.) I'm really looking forward to seeing all of them. Since my best friend's parents moved a few years ago, it makes it harder to see any of them. It used to be that, at Christmas or some holiday, she'd be at her parents' and I'd be at my mom's and that was only about 10 minutes apart. Now it's about an hour and a half - I think. Jiffy, her hubby, and their daughter live in western KY. Her older brother and his wife live in OK. You can see why I don't get to see them much any more! And since I'm about to leave the country, I figured I'd better take this opportunity to see them all again. If I'm brave when I get home from work, maybe I'll post a picture of Jiffy and me from a few years ago.

I'm also having lunch with my good friend Meat on Friday. (No, not all of my friends have funny nicknames.) We're going to pick up some lunch at a deli and then go to the local park so her rugrats can run around while she and I visit. Of all my friends from school or church in my hometown, she's the only one that actually still lives there, so I try to make sure to always see her when I'm in town. She's the same friend that got together with Master and me for lunch (again) when he and I were there at the end of March. She's just started dating a new guy, so I'm sure she'll be talking a lot about that!

I know I'll have a good time this weekend, but there's always a part of me that hates leaving town any more, just because I don't get much time with Master while I'm gone. At least we can talk on the phone while I'm there now. Our relationship was a secret for the first several months, so when I'd go out of town then, we'd only be able to secretly send text messages. That sucked.

I've been feeling even better about our relationship in the last week or so. We had a bit of a breakthrough that I didn't even know I needed. We decided last week that sometime soon after we get to Edmonton after moving me there, we're going to have some sort of... thing. (We can't decide on what to call it because "ceremony" doesn't seem like the right word and we can't find a better one to fit.) We're going to have a thing for just the two of us, making the promises we want to make, committing ourselves to each other, and that's when Master will, essentially, collar me by putting on my ankle bracelet. I felt so much better after we decided to do that, which surprised me, but I think I know why.

Marriage has been kind of a sore spot for me in my relationship with Master. I definitely want to get married, and I'm not really willing to budge on that. Master doesn't want to get married again, after having such a crappy experience with it the first time around. At first he just said he'd be willing to again, if that's what I really wanted, although more recently, he sounds more confident about it, and maybe even kind of excited about it. But the real reason for the sore spot is that Master is still legally married. They're legally separated. And even though I know Master wants to be rid of her completely, it's not always so easy, and definitely not cheap. It just bothered me so much that it didn't seem like anything was ever being done to get it over with. It still bothers me when I think about it, but I know the holdup is money. (I still think I'm going to look into some kind of free legal help so this can just be over and done with.)

Anyway, with that being such a spot of contention for me, any mention of marriage at all got me upset. I was trying to not even think about it, because I didn't want to hope for anything just to set myself up for disappointment. So, knowing now that we're going to be doing our own little thing is really making me feel better. No, it doesn't solve any of the legal, technical crap, but it lets me know that it's not an issue of Master not wanting to commit to me. I hadn't even articulated that I felt that way until after we had decided to do this. Funny how much better things are when a problem is solved that you didn't even know you had.

I've really been rambling today! Well, I guess that'll make up for all the posting I won't be doing over the weekend. I get back Sunday evening, so I'll try to catch up then. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

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7 Comments:

Blogger Roxanne said...

Hope you have a good time at the wedding and getting to visit with all your friends. Are you going to plow everyone down to catch the garter? :)

May 31, 2006 1:36 PM  
Blogger dirk.mancuso said...

Oh I hope you post the pic! I am always curius what folks look like (especially because you form a mental pic on your head, you know?)

May 31, 2006 4:05 PM  
Blogger His suzy said...

I avoid the garter/bouquet like the plague! Any more, with the weddings I go to, if I were to try to get it, it would be me and a bunch of teenage girls half my age. Yeah, that's what I need memories of.

May 31, 2006 4:39 PM  
Blogger Prismiad said...

I am 100% commited to my Suzy, without any doubts and I feel great about that, like I never have before.

How come you never told me any stories about the friend without the funny nickname?

May 31, 2006 5:54 PM  
Blogger His suzy said...

I've told You. You just don't remember. :P

May 31, 2006 7:09 PM  
Blogger Roxanne said...

Oops..I guess it's the guys who go after the garter. It's been awhile since I've been to a wedding I guess.

June 01, 2006 12:03 AM  
Blogger Master said...

I am 100% commited to my Suzy, without any doubts and I feel great about that, like I never have before.

How come you never told me any stories about the friend without the funny nickname?

December 11, 2007 1:07 PM  

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