Friday, September 28, 2007

Five Months

Yesterday was Master's and my five-month wedding anniversary. Of course, it didn't occur to me til today and neither of us mentioned it. lol I can honestly say, things are better now than they were when we first married. There was so much to adjust to, not just getting married, but moving to Edmonton and, more than anything, living with Master's kids. I still think that's been the biggest adjustment for me. Master and I have had so many discussions and disagreements, esp. when I first got here, about the kids, what should be expected of them, how they should be punished, etc. I know that my being here was a big adjustment for everyone else too. I think that I've been here long enough now that we've all been able to relax around each other, and the kids can see that I'm not an evil step-mother or anything. And I still think that them going back to school has helped just because they both seem to be in better moods most of the time. And good moods always help in any situation!!

I'm picking up Alice after school today so she and I can both go get haircuts. I'm long overdue for one. My hair just looks and feels so shaggy to me right now. I always know it's time for a trim when my bangs get too long. However, when I'm short on money, I'll skip a time and just trim my own bangs. Well, I've already done that and I've been putting off this haircut for as long as I can, just to try to stretch it out. So my hair is really driving me nuts right now. I'm looking forward to this afternoon!

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Wednesday, September 26, 2007


I'm going to be starting my paper route next week. I'll get the route info on Monday, but when the lady spoke to Master (since it's technically in his name) it sounded like it's really close to here. They bring the stuff here and then I deliver it from here. It's a free paper here in Edmonton, so I only have to do it twice a week. The lady told Master that it'll take me about 2 hours each time. It's not much, but what I'll make from this will cover all of my diabetic stuff. And maybe a tiny bit more. I'm not exactly excited about it, especially with winter coming, but I just keep reminding myself that it's temporary.


Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Does anyone else use Stat Counter and know what the heck happened to their site?


Don't you wish there were a knob on the TV to turn up the intelligence? There's one marked 'Brightness,' but it doesn't work.

-- Gallagher


Sunday, September 23, 2007

The Sandman Cometh

I had a dream this weekend. Somehow I was dating Eli Manning. We were at his parents house for a Bible study. (I know, I'm saying the same thing you all are. "Huh?") At one point, Eli kissed me, but instead of moving his lips like most people do when they kiss, he moved his whole torso in order to move his lips on mine. For his sake, I really hope that's not how he actually kisses. lol

The funny thing about this is that this is the second time I've had a dream about a pro-football player wanting to get with me. And, of course, both dreams happened during football season. But I don't even pay huge attention to the Giants, like I do with the Bears, so I'm not sure why I'd be dreaming of Eli Manning. His big brother, maybe, but I'm not sure where Eli's coming from. My crazy subconscious. :P

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Friday, September 21, 2007

Interesting Night

Last night was an Open House/Meet the Teacher night at John's school. He's going to a new school this year, the same elementary that Master went to. John is going to a school across town now because it's a block from where Master's parents live. Now that Alice is in high school, she doesn't get home early enough to be here when John gets home from school. And while I'm here right now, I should be working well before the school year is out, which means that I would be here either. And 4th grader John isn't old enough to be here alone. Master's dad is retired, so John can just go there and hang out with him after school. Master's parents house is only a few minutes from where he works, so he can just take John in the morning and pick him up after work.

Anyway, the whole time we were at the school last night, Master kept talking about how everything looked exactly the same from when he was there! That makes it sound like the school hasn't upgraded and must be in bad shape, but it sure didn't look like that. So either things have been upgraded and it all just looks the same to Master and/or the school has taken really good care of itself!

It felt weird to go to one of these things. I'm not a parent, what the heck am I doing at a school open house? lol It's a nice little school, smaller than either of the elementaries I went to. This one has only 1 class per grade, although there are 1 or 2 classes of combined grades. (John was in a 3/4 class last year when he was in 3rd grade, and I still don't completely understand how the combined classes work.) Plus, John only has 19 kids in his class, which is a smaller class than any I had, as far as I remember. It seems like he has a good teacher and I think John is fairly happy at the school.

After we got home last night, Master and I got into a bit of a heated discussion. What about? Money, of course. I was frustrated because I'm basically broke at this point and Master will still go out and buy little stuff for himself. (When I say little stuff, I'm talking about $1-2 things. Really little.) It's not that I think Master shouldn't be able to buy stuff, but I think I felt stuck because I can't. Master says if there's something I want or need, I should ask him for it. He can't always get it all for me, but I should still ask. That didn't sit well with me. I was thinking about it afterwards and it hit me that I haven't had to rely on someone so much, financially speaking, since... high school? And even then I either had a job, once I was old enough, or I got an allowance before that, so I still had a little spending money. Not to mention the fact that even though I was financially dependent on my parents at that point, we weren't as strapped financially as Master and I are now. I'm just not used to having to ask for everything I want or need. Everything. That's a big change for me, and it's definitely not one that comes naturally. So I'm having to learn.

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Thursday, September 20, 2007

No Means No

Someone needs to learn when to quit.


Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Hot Sex

Master had to get up super, super early this morning. Sometimes he has little jobs on the side, outside of his regular full-time job, and he had one this morning before work. So he went to bed early. I wasn't ready for bed and it would've been a little early for my bedtime insulin shot, so I stayed up reading for a little while. When I did go to bed, I snuggled up to Master. I was laying there in his arms, just thinking about him and how much I love him, and it just made me feel so needy for him. At first I was just being snuggling and giving him some little kisses, but it just wasn't enough. So I started kissing him more on the mouth. That woke him up a little more. Then I reached down under the blanket. He was kinda cold last night when he went to bed (I'd like to think it was because I wasn't there!) so he was actually wearing clothes to bed, which doesn't normally happen. So I had to start groping him through his sweat pants. Well, you know he didn't put up with that for long. lol We had a bit of a mishap while he was getting out of his clothes, I was stroking his penis even while he was undressing and I was kinda of leaning on my other elbow, leaning with my head near his waist while he took off his shirt. My head was still there while he was taking off his pants, and his leg ended up hitting my nose! Fortunately it wasn't a hard hit, so it didn't deter us for long!

It didn't take long for Master to be ready. It really turns him on when I wake him up for sex. I got up on my knees and forearms, Master got behind me, and we went at it! Dang, I love his cock! It's just big enough to be a tight fit and to feel good, but not big enough to be painful. It's perfect! Whenever we have sex, Master usually cums twice, and that was true last night. The first time doesn't take real long (although even then he's not a one-minute man), but then he keeps going for the second time. Last night as he was getting close to cumming the second time, we found this incredible angle that felt soooo good for me. I was making a lot of noise. Loudly. As of yet, I don't usually orgasm from just sex, but it felt like a kind of mini-orgasm or half-orgasm last night. It didn't hurt that Master came again during that time either! It was such a rush that I even cried a little afterwards. It was some of the best sex we've ever had!! And then I could just curl up tightly in Master's arms and drift off. :)

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Monday, September 17, 2007


Master and I had a really good weekend. It actually didn't start out that great, due to Alice being out really late on Friday night and then bringing friends home with her. Master and I were up half the night because of that. Fortunately, though, the whole thing kind of blew up in her face so rather than needing to punish her, she seems to have learned her lesson on her own. I hope.

Anyway, Master and I were able to get a lot of good time together and have a lot of good sex. In fact, for me, I think the one round was probably some of the best I've had! How is that not a good weekend? :)

The bummer of the weekend is that it looks like I'm sort of going to have to get a job. We're thinking that Master will get a paper route or something like that and then I'll actually do the job. I just cost too much money. We'd be able to squeak by, but because of my lovely diabetes, all the insulin, syriges, and blood test strips are just too expensive. So we're going to be looking around to see what we can find. I'm bummed about it, but as I told Master last night, it's not so bad since I know it's going to be temporary.

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Friday, September 14, 2007

News and Not

The good news is that the furnace was easily fixed without having to call a repair man. Turns out that switch (the one that looks like a light switch) had somehow gotten flipped to Off. Master and I suspect that sometime during the summer when we were moving things around (some of my stuff is stored next to the furnace now), the flip probably got accidentally switched and we didn't realize it. So we have heat and it didn't cost us anything! Yea!

The un-news is that we still haven't received whatever letter we're going to get from Immigration. Of course, we haven't gotten today's (Friday's) mail yet, so it could arrive today. And I really hope that it does or it's going to be a long weekend waiting for Monday's mail. (Canadians don't have mail delivered on Saturday. Dang it.)

UPDATE: We did receive the letter in today's mail. Master met the requirements to sponsor me and so that part has been approved and now my application has been sent to the consulate in Buffalo for processing. The part that sucks is that when we crossed the border with Peachie back in June, one of the immigration people there said that once we'd been approved for the first part, I'd go ahead and received a temporary work permit. Turns out that's not the case. If I were applying for permanent residency from within Canada, then I would receive the permit. But since I'm only a visitor here and applying to immigrate from the States, I still can't work. She said it would probably be 6-9 months. Sigh. I'm having to remind myself that at least I'm here and I'm with Master, but I really hate feeling like a drain on his money and not having any kind of spending money for myself.

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Thursday, September 13, 2007

Oh Boy

We have a couple days of colder weather, yesterday and today. It's 2 C outside right now. If 0 C is 32 F, then you can figure out about what that is. Fortunately, it's not going to stay that way and will be better over the weekend. However, this bit of a cold snap revealed a problem - our furnace isn't working. It's chilly in the house right now, although not horribly cold. I just hope that whatever the problem is, isn't anything terribly expensive to fix. We just can't afford it right now.

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Tuesday, September 11, 2007


I checked our immigration application status online this morning. I've been checking it regularly ever since I mailed back the redone application. Yesterday nothing was changed but when I checked it this morning, here's what the status said:

We sent you a letter on September 10, 2007 about the decision on your application. Please consider delays in mail delivery before contacting us.

That's it. So I guess I'll know something within the next few days. Based on what we saw when our application was returned to us, I feel relatively confident that it'll be good news. But, of course, there's still that part of me that's nervous and anxious about it. Please, everyone, keep your fingers crossed and say your prayers!


Monday, September 10, 2007

Holy. Crap.

You know how some people like to blame their parents for all their problems? Well, this woman can actually blame her grandparents (apparently).


Small Breakthrough

I noticed something interesting this weekend, namely yesterday. Up til now, the kids have, in a sense, kept their distance. I mean that in this way: they can tease and harass each other and Master, and they'll have fun with me, but not in that teasing way. It hasn't bothered me and I'm not even sure it had occurred to me, really.

One of John's favourite foods is bacon. But since Master considers it a pain to make - even though he loves it too - he usually only makes it once a year, on John's birthday. His birthday this year was about a month after I got here and I helped make the bacon. I even said that I didn't mind making it. Well, Master and John decided to take me up on that this weekend, so I made bacon and scrambled eggs for breakfast Saturday morning. I think I scored some points with that. lol

But yesterday evening I noticed that John was kind of teasing me, calling me Crazy Lady. And when he and Master were playing around, and Master had him pinned on the floor, he was laughing and asking me to help him, which he's never done in that situation before.

Because of his easy-going nature and mainly because I spend more time with John than either of the other two kids, I occasionally feel like he might end up being almost a bit of an "ambassador" for me to the other two kids.

One of my good friends from college, Debbie, would often start to tease people soon after she met them. I recall one person being a little taken aback by her good-natured ribbing having met her just that day. She told him, "I only harass the people I like." And it was absolutely true! What happened with John this weekend reminded me of that. :)

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Friday, September 07, 2007

Are You Ready for Some Football?

As you may know, the NFL season kicked off last night with the big game between NOLA and Indy. You know I had to watch! I was happy when Indy got it together and pulled out a nice win in the second half. I pointed out to Master how loud it got in there on third down, having experienced it first hand, and having not experienced it at the Eskimos game. lol

I'm so happy that the season has started! I'm also excited because I'll get to watch the Bears game on Sunday afternoon; one of the Canadian sports channels is carrying it! We have enough channels here that I'll probably be able to catch more NFL games here than I did in the States. lol

I'm also trying something new this year - Fantasy Football. I've never paid much attention to it before, so I'm winging it a little. I don't have a terrific RB on my team, so I'm a little weak in that dept., but Carson Palmer is my QB, and I have mostly Indy WR's and TE's. I've got Bears defense and special teams and Bears kicker Robbie Gould. So other than my RB's, I feel like I've got a pretty good team put together. I'm excited to see what happens! :)


Thursday, September 06, 2007

Good & Bad

The last few days have been... not great overall, but they had some good moments. Master came down with a cold (thanks to his idiot boss) so his day off for Labour Day wasn't quite what it could've been. I also had a bad sinus headache that day, but despite all that, we didn't want to stay inside all day since it was nice out. So we grabbed some lunch and headed to my favourite park. You know, the ones with all the birds and the muskrats. :) We were having some nice lunch until two ladies with their two kids and puppy came over to the table RIGHT NEXT to where we were. And tried to start a fire in the grill. So the last part of our lunch was spent trying to breathe between the smell of gas and the smoke from the non-fire. I felt so bad for that puppy. He was a cute as he could be, but they basically ignored him and didn't even pay much attention when he got close to the grill and various bits of ash and such were landing on him! I'd normally ask to pet a puppy like that, but I was afraid I might just take him with me to spare him the pain of having to live with idiots!

Master and I strolled about the park just a bit after we ate. It was then that I noticed, and mentioned to Master, that a noticeable number of trees were already started to change color! It surprised me because it's only Labour Day, you know? Master gave me a little swat on my bum for pointing that out. He's not thrilled about winter coming. lol

Master went to work on Tuesday, but was miserably sick by the time he got home. I felt bad and did what I could for him, but that wasn't much. His stomach was starting to bother him too and he was up half the night because he was so miserable. (He has the oddest most finicky stomach of anyone I've ever known. He always calls it a piece of crap.) He ended up getting sick and thankfully started feeling better after that. We were able to go to bed sometime around 3, I think. Even though his stomach was fine and his cold was starting to feel some better, he stayed home from work yesterday, mainly because he just needed the rest.

I didn't have such a good day yesterday. I hate to use this as a reason/excuse, but I was totally PMS'ing and that didn't help. It just seemed like some small things added up in my mind and put me in a bad mood all day. I went so far as to not having dinner with everyone, which is something that rarely happens as it is. Master was ticked off. We got into it later, him wanting to know what my problem was and me trying to explain. I cried and cried. I apologized and apologized. Master had told me to have dinner. I refused. I should've obeyed. The truth is that I'm still learning how to submit all the time, not just when I want to. Master told me I needed to go apologize to the kids and explain that my not eating dinner with everyone didn't have anything to do with them. I knew I needed to do so, but I wanted to wait til today. He wouldn't let me. This time I obeyed. We went to bed and I snuggled up to Master. But I couldn't leave him alone. You all know what happened next. ;)

So today has started out much better. I'm enjoying my days more now that the kids are back in school. Master observed last night that the kids seem to be in better moods now too. I think they just spent too much time in the house and not around other people, so now that they're with kids their own age again, they're happy about it, even if it means being in school. I'm hoping by next summer maybe we can afford to get John involved in some kind of summer activity (Alice will be working again), so maybe it'll be better.

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Tuesday, September 04, 2007


I saw a bumper sticker today that read:

Just Fuckin Giver

That doesn't make any sense to me. Anyone got any ideas?


Sunday, September 02, 2007

Granna Picture

This is Granna and me sometime this past spring before I flew up here. My aunt C (one of my mom's younger sisters) had made Granna a quilt a few years back that has pictures of all of our family. I had hung the quilt for her that day in her apt. at the senior living place. So that's the quilt on the wall next to us. It's still a little hard to believe that this is my last picture with her.

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