Thursday, February 26, 2009

Master and I leave tomorrow after work. We're hiding away in a Holiday Inn for the weekend. I can't wait!! :)

UPDATE - Now my period is here. Of course. We all knew this was going to happen, didn't we? Dang it.

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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Words Go Here

Yesterday after work I did a wee bit of shopping. Despite it still feeling very much like winter right now, I went to find a spring (or fall) jacket. I haven't had a light-weight jacket for a few years now, mainly because of money, and I can actually afford one now. So I went to a nearby store where I do the majority of my shopping (it's a plus-sized women's chain store) to look. I found one pretty easily. It's a very blah tan kind of colour, but it's otherwise exactly what I wanted, and it was only in the one colour, so what are ya gonna do? While I was there, I looked around a bit more and got a little something for our getaway this weekend! :)

When I got home, Master and John were in the kitchen, having just finished eating dinner. As I was heating up some chicken in the microwave, we decided to watch a movie. We ended up watching Mars Attacks. I hadn't seen it before, but it's really quite funny! We all enjoyed it.

After the movie, I went upstairs for a bit to put away my dirty plate and get make some hot tea. When I went back downstairs, around 9 PM, Master had turned to the Oilers game and John was reading his book. Master and I had agreed the night before that he would comb my hair before bed, and I said that he owed me a long combing because we'd been trying for a few nights to do that, but things kept happening that prevented it.

A little before 9:30, John went upstairs and Master told me to get naked and sit on the bed for my combing. He said I had 10 minutes, and then he went upstairs for a snack. I was a few minutes late because I was doing most of my "bedtime" stuff at that point so I wouldn't have to do it later. Nevertheless, Master sat down with me and combed my hair for about 20 minutes. I was really disappointed. It's wasn't a longer combing than usual. And for half of the combing, we're talking about colds, which doesn't exactly help me relax. (My co-worker, Kim, has come down with a cold, so I'm trying to be really careful to not catch it!) I got a little cranky, feeling like I wasn't getting enough time with Master. We didn't get time Monday night because I had stuff to (store, stuff around the house), we won't get time Wednesday night because I watch Lost and then need to go to the gym, and we won't get time Thursday night because I watch a couple shows and that's his traditional night to spend time with John. I mentioned that he could've told John to go upstairs right after the movie, and he said he didn't think of it. He said that we'd get time on Wednesday after Lost, so I reminded him that I had to go to the gym. I was just upset; it's frustrating to feel like he doesn't always think about these things, or even if he does, he doesn't do anything about it.

I think this is why I feel like sometimes I'm just still waiting for Master to really take control of things. It really sometimes seems like, if I don't think of things and do things myself, then it just doesn't happen. Or, Master will take control of stuff when he's focused in on me and us, but in the every-day situations or when there's other things going on, then don't bet on it. And sometimes that's when I need it the most. I don't know how to fix it, either. I think about things, I think ahead, I pay attention to what's going on around me; and Master just doesn't seem to do that a lot. Or maybe just not as much as I'd like him to.

I'm not going to the gym tonight. I need time with my Owner. I guess I just wish there was an easier way around all of this.

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Tuesday, February 24, 2009


With a stop light, green means 'go' and yellow means 'slow down'. With a banana, however, it is quite the opposite. Yellow means 'go', green means 'whoa, slow down', and red means 'where the heck did you get that banana?'

-- Mitch Hedberg


Sunday, February 22, 2009

Life as We Know It

The weekend is almost over. It's been uneventful, almost to the point of being boring. And yet, that's okay with me. Sometimes that's just life, isn't it? And what's wrong with that? I went to the gym, I got some things done around the house, and I spent some good time with Master. Master, John, and I tried watching a movie - The Arrow - last night that ended up being 3 hours long and was not that interesting. It's based on a true (Canadian) story, and it is kind of interesting, but probably not interesting enough to make a movie out of. And certainly not a freaking 3 hour movie!!

Today Master checked my tires and discovered that one of them has a leak, so he's going to get it repaired for me tomorrow. I love having someone around to take care of that kind of stuff for me. I know very little about cars. I can add washer fluid and oil, and Master's shown me how to change a tire now, but that's about it.

Regular life is all right, eh? :)

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Thursday, February 19, 2009

Raising Sand

I'm listening to a new CD. (I've never downloaded a song in my life. I'm still old school that way.) I'd been hearing about this album from Robert Plant and Alison Krauss; it won some Grammy's, I think, and was getting a lot of buzz. I like Alison Krauss, and the two of them together sounded like an interesting combo. So bought it. I'm only about half way through it as I type this, but I LOVE IT!!! LOVE IT!! It's kind of country, kind of rock, and there's some other stuff in there too. #3 - Sister Rosetta Goes Before Us - makes me feel like doing a belly dance. lol If you think you'd have an interest in this CD, check it out. So far, I'm highly recommending it. It's awesome!!


Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Remember Me

I finished a book yesterday. I rather liked it. It was Remember Me by Lesley Pearse. It's based on a true story about a young woman, Mary Broad, who's charged with a crime in England, and ends up being one of the people shipped off to Australia when they're first starting to use it as a penal colony. Check it out! :)


Monday, February 16, 2009

Family Day

Today is Family Day here in Alberta. It's a provincial holiday that was started in AB, although a couple other provinces (Ontario and Manitoba, I believe) also celebrate it now. However, since it's not a national holiday, and the office I work in supports districts nationwide, I'm still here at work. It's not all bad, though, because it means I get a day off of my choosing during the off-season. So it kind of like getting an extra vacation day! Plus, the traffic was non-existant!

Saturday was kind of a blah day. I had something planned for in the morning that didn't work out and it sort of brought the whole day down for me. Since we had the boys this weekend (and next weekend too), we didn't really do anything for Valentine's Day, which is okay, really. Last year Master and I went out to dinner the night before VD to avoid the crowds. It's not like having something happen on THE DAY is that big of a deal, really. I like to acknowledge it, probably just because I've spent most of my life not having anyone to spend it with, but it's still not this big, important, dramatic thing for me.

Anyway, Sunday was much better! Master and I didn't really have a good day Saturday, but Sunday was great. We had great sex a few different times during the day, we were both in good moods, and we were relaxed and happy. It was wonderful!! We went to my in-laws that evening for dinner and even that was pretty good, which isn't always the case since it's easy to get bored while we're there. There's a shirt I own that is Master's favourite. I bought it on a whim years ago soon after I moved to Chicago, thinking it'd be great to wear when I go out at night... but then I never went out at night. lol It's kind of low-cut, which has a lot to do with why Master likes it, and he's asked me to wear it to his parents house before, but I've always resisted, kind of joking that I don't want to be labelled as the family whore! But yesterday he told me he wanted me to wear it, and I did. I've come to realize that it's not as revealing as I tend to think that it is, so I don't feel so bad about it. But it's still about as revealing as I get. Maybe some day I'll post a picture so you all can judge for yourselves. :)

Master made a suggestion sometime over the weekend - maybe Saturday night? - that in a couple weeks when John goes to his mom's for the weekend, we should do a little getaway. I always love that kind of thing, so I was pretty excited about that idea! We're not going to go far. All we really want to do is find a nice enough place where we can kind of "hole up" for the weekend, have a change of scenery, get away from distractions, and spend some good time together. We even talked about staying in town and just going to a good hotel, but Master says he spends enough time driving around Edmonton for his job that he'd really rather go somewhere else. So I'll be looking online today to figure out where to go!

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Friday, February 13, 2009



Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I feel like I haven't been blogging much lately, and when I do, it's just random crap. Sorry 'bout that. It kind of feels like there's just not much going on lately that's worth recounting.

I bought a new pair of shoes on Monday to replace a pair that had a broken heel. I'm not thrilled with the new pair, but it took me forever to find the old pair, so I feel like I can only be so picky at this point. (And I only found the old pair in Montana when Master and I had our little trip there last May.)

I watched the movie "Michael Clayton" on Sunday night. It's a good movie - heavy, but good. I liked it and I'd recommend it.

I went to the gym last night. I was going to walk on the treadmill a bit after being on the eliptical machine, but all the treadmills were either being used or out of order, so I just went home.

See? Not much going on to babble about these days. I hope you're all having a good week.

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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Not for Boys

My body sucks. For once, I'm not even talking about my weight or being in bad shape. It seems that my ovaries don't want to cooperate. Last month, my period started on Jan. 2... and then lasted for two weeks. Granted, it was lighter than usual, but still... two weeks. I start PMS'ing a week and a half ago, but no period yet. I'm not even PMS'ing any more, so I have no idea what's going on. I PMS, have a break, and then get my period? I'm usually fairly regular, with exceptions here and there, but I don't know what the deal is the last few months. It's starting to tick me off, though!

I just wanted to get that out.

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Saturday, February 07, 2009

My New Rack

No, I don't have new boobies! Although, Master and I have been joking about that... hee hee. I just thought I'd share a picture of my new clothes rack. You'll have to forgive the fact that it looks a little like it's in a dungeon. It's in the unfinished part of the basement, which is the laundry room. It doesn't make for attractive surroundings for my clothes, but it does make it super easy to hang up my clothes when they come out of the dryer! :)


Friday, February 06, 2009

Just Stuff

I don't really have much to say. I have to go to Ikea after work to get a wardrobe. Because our room is basically the first half of the basement, I don't have a closet. Not long after I got here, I bought a cheap clothes rack, but because it was cheap, almost the entire time I've had it, it's been leaning. It's gotten worse and it was just making me nervous. Monday I got a different one, and it seemed to be better than the first one, although I would've preferred it to be sturdier. I put it together Wednesday night, and yesterday came home from work to find all of my clothes on the floor because the new rack was already broken. Sigh. So I'm going to just pay more money for something better than just a clothes rack since that really isn't working out for me.

Master and I had another big discussion last night. I don't feel like going into it, so I won't. We just seem to get stuck in vicious circles sometimes. I'm waiting for him to really step up and take control, he's waiting for me to submit more. I'm waiting for him to take care of me, he's waiting for me to ask for and tell him what I want and need. Stuff like that. Even if it starts out being a disagreement, at least we talk about it and try to sort it out, and that's a good thing.

I am so dang glad that it's Friday!!

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Wednesday, February 04, 2009

25 Random Things

A couple weeks ago, I was "tagged" on Facebook by a couple friends (who, actually, don't know each other) to do this list of 25 random things about myself. I rarely ever do these things, whether it's email, blog, or Facebook. However, after reading some other lists, I realized what a great way it was to share yourself with people. It's not just answering random questions about what song you're listening to at that moment or something; it can be some in-depth stuff! So I did it too. And since I kind of like my list, I thought I'd share here too.

1. I like Facebook way more than I thought I would.

2. It honestly ticks me off how many things are sold in the States that are NOT sold in Canada. Food, clothes, whatever - NOT HAPPY!!

3. I've learned that unless you've been in a certain situation, you really can't judge someone for what they've done or how they've reacted. Sometimes you really don't know what you would do until it happens to you.

4. I really love my family - both mom's and dad's sides!! They are incredibly funny, smart, unique, crazy people and I really wish I could spend more time with them.

5. I wish I was more artistic.

6. Doctors will tell you that you can live a normal life as a diabetic, but they're lying. Just because you can still do pretty much everything that everyone else can do, doesn't make it a normal life.

7. My hair is longer now than it's ever been before in my life.

8. I miss my friends.

9. I'm a big sap. I feel bad getting rid of things that I've had for a long time because there's a part of me that feels like I'm hurting their feelings. Yes, I know that they're inanimate objects.

10. I almost got my eyebrow pierced in college. The fact that it was going to cost about $50 changed my mind.

11. I had a lot of fun in both high school and college, but I wouldn't go back if you paid me.

12. It's such an amazing feeling to know that my husband knows all the worst things about me, and actually still loves me! It makes me feel very safe.

13. I still don't wear make-up.

14. I think animals are so cool and they fascinate me!

15. Moving to Edmonton and adjusting to life here has been one of the hardest things I've ever done. Some days it's still an adjustment.

16. I think I'm so fortunate that I got to know all four of my grandparents. I was in college before any of them died.

17. I don't miss living in Chicago. It never felt like home.

18. I love having people that I consider family even if I'm not technically related to them.

19. It honestly kind of freaked me out when I turned 30. I mean... how did that happen?

20. I still miss my dad.

21. I don't have a favourite flower. So many of them are pretty, I can't pick just one!

22. I love driving! It's like therapy to me sometimes.

23. I think I've learned a lot of good things from my parents.

24. I think I'm only now coming to realize that maybe I had more confidence than what is usual when I was growing up. I don't know where that came from.

25. I love making people smile and laugh!

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Monday, February 02, 2009

New Kind of Road Warrior

THIS is absolutely cracking me up!!


Sunday, February 01, 2009

This and That

I hate PMS. It always makes me moody and/or bitchy, and when it kicks in, I never realize it's PMS until... well, whatever. I just think everyone is stupid or lazy or annoying or all of the above and it's never me, right? Ugh. And as much as I hate using PMS as an excuse for anything, I just don't know how to make it stop!

I went to the gym this morning. I've still been slacking off on going at least twice a week, every week. That's what I was doing when I first joined last spring, and it was working for me. Maybe some day I can manage 3 times a week, but I'd be happy right now with just twice a week. I think Master's going to be tougher with me about it, so that'd be good.

That's all I have to say for now.

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