Weekend Away
Labels: Travel
This is me, rambling about my life and laughs. (Not suitable for children or idiots.)
Labels: Travel
I won't go into great detail because there's no need to. I spent a week at my mom's and basically spent the entire time visiting with old friends and family, and relaxing. Sunday after church was lunch with a couple friends. Mom took Monday and Tuesday off of work and we drove down to Cincinnati. Monday we met an old friend for lunch (at LaRosa's - YUM!!!), then met up with my cousin that afternoon, then met some other friends for dinner. We spent the night at a hotel in northern KY. Jiffy (yay!!), who lives in southern KY, drove up and met us for lunch (at Abuelo's - YUM!!!), then we went over to some old friends' house for a couple hours, then we drove up to Dayton to have dinner with Brother and his girlfriend at their house. We were just going from one great time to another for two days!! As my mom said, "I've never done anything like that before in my life. That was fun!"
I had a nice time with Brother and his GF. This was the first time we'd met even though they've been together for a few years now. I like her! She was nice and seems to have a good sense of humour. Since there's a good chance she's going to be my sister-in-law someday, I'm glad that I like her.
Wednesday I just stayed at home while Mom had to go to work. What did I do all day? Watched TV and knit. Vacation, baby!!
Wednesday night we went to church, as I did every week growing up. Afterwards, I went home with my old friend Andrew and his wife and their kids. They're sort of like the Brady Bunch, but with only 4 kids instead of 6. His first wife died, her first husband died, and they each had two kids... there ya go! Anyway, I hadn't met his second wife, so I got to know her a little and got to visit with them both. It was nice.
Thursday morning I got up early and drove Mom to work so I could have her car for the day. I came back home and went back to bed for a little while. When I got up again I got ready and then went out to run a couple little errands, including picking up my lunch at Skyline Chili (YUM!!!). I took my lunch over to Meat's house and got to hang out with her for a few hours! She's a stay at home mom right now. She got married a couple months before I moved up here and she and her husband have now had two boys, then second one being born just this past June. I hadn't seen (in person) either of them, so it was great to see her babies! I didn't think I was going to get to see her older two from her first marriage, but I ended up going with her to pick them up from school, so I got to see them too! Her son remembered me, but her daughter didn't. I wasn't surprised, though, because her daughter was only 3 when I left. It was so nice to get some time with Meat and those few hours went way too quickly!
Thursday evening Brother and GF came up to Mom's for dinner with us again. We had another really nice visit. I hope eventually I'll be able to get to know GF better because she seems nice and she's definitely smart.
Mom had Friday off of work already, so we had a late lunch with a couple more friends. Then since I had to get going quite early Saturday morning to fly back, we just spent the rest of the day at home - relaxing, visiting, and getting me ready to leave.
Not a bad way to spend a week, eh? You know, I had a terrific time, but more than that, I feel better. I feel stronger, even. I think getting to spend all that time with people who have known me, in some cases, my entire life or at least for a really long time was a good reminder of how loved I am. That I really am special and someone worth being around. That I'll be okay because I have all these wonderful people supporting me. It felt like people were reminding me of who I really am, and it was a positive thing.
It was hard to come back. It was like I didn't know what I was coming back for. It didn't help that there wasn't even anyone to pick me up at the airport because everyone was busy. I had to take a taxi home. I feel more like, unless something significant changes for me here, I will likely move back to the States at some point. I hesitate to put a timeline on it just because I really don't know. I would think it'd be within the next five years, but who's to say?
Anyway, it was a wonderful, much needed trip back home. I love my people. :)
I'm back in Edmonton. I'm having trouble calling it home right now. I had a really, really great trip to Ohio. Getting to see my people and spend time with them was like food for my soul. But now I'm really torn about my future, about what my next step should be. I keep reminding myself not to worry about it because there's not a whole lot to be done right now anyway. Mom said I should pray about it, and she's right. Sometimes I think my life has ended up here because I made my own decisions instead of trying to make the decisions that God would have me make for my life. I haven't been seeking His will in my life like I should. So I'm trying to pray more and worry less.
In any case, I'm here again. I'll blog about my trip soon.
Master came by tonight after work and we finally signed the Separation Agreement. He also saved the Divorce Kit to my laptop so I can read and look through everything. He didn't stay long. It's just as well. It's like every time I see him... it's just tears my heart out of my chest and I am instantly so hurt and angry. Especially if things are going well for him, which they seem to be at this point. I even told him that tonight. I told him that it's hard for me to see him be happy already. Why should he get to be happy so soon? When my life still feels like it's just barely starting to come back together? I told him that as excited as I am about going to Ohio, there's a little part of me that's dreading it because I know there are going to be questions. I'll be going to church with Mom and I'm sure not everyone there knows yet. I can just see one of those sweet little old ladies coming up to me and asking me where my husband is and why they never get to meet him. He said he's sorry, but it's not all his fault. I said it was mostly his fault. I did everything he asked, which he's acknowledged himself, so I'm not even making that up. He says I shouldn't have hated him because he snored. I said he should have actually DONE something about it and not treated it like it was my problem just because he wasn't bothered. Just like he acted like it was all my problem because I wasn't comfortable with Alice's boyfriend shacking up with her when they hadn't even graduated from high school! Just like he acted like it was all my problem that I wasn't willing to live with Alice any more (after she did graduate) because she's a complete bitch! I mean, really, why should it matter if I'm completely uncomfortable in my own home? Even after all that, I was willing to stay married, knowing full well that my needs would never be met, because I made a commitment. I don't want to be the kind of person who breaks a promise just because it doesn't turn out like I wanted it to. I was willing to stand by the vows that I made.
Anyway, that brief visit tonight just reinforced the fact that I just need to not be in touch with Master for a while. If I'm not thinking about him or communicating with him, it's a whole lot easier on me. There's just too much pain from dealing with Master right now.
Here's the yarn I bought for Ginny:
This picture didn't turn out as well, but here's the milk fibre I bought at the same time:
I have six knitting projects going right now. What can I say? I like having a variety of things to work on!
Here's the scarf I'm knitting for my manager Candy for a Christmas present:
And here is the alpaca scarf I'm knitting for the other member of our team at work, Lizzy: