Saturday, September 24, 2011

The Week

I had a crappy week this past week, overall. My intention was to get going on changing back to my maiden name. I did try to start with that, but the first step is to get a copy of the divorce certificate. I went to the local registry on Thursday in order to do that, change my driver's license, and update my provincial health care records. I was excited that I was going to be able to take care of three things with one stop! Turns out I couldn't. I can't get the divorce certificate at the registry, despite the fact that they do birth, marriage, and death certificates. No, I have to go downtown to the courthouse to get the divorce certificate. And without the divorce certificate, I couldn't do anything else at the registry. A big ol' wasted trip.

Anyway, I was just angry and crabby and depressed all week. I was (and still kind of am) angry about having to go through all this crap. The time, the energy, and the MONEY I'm having to spend just to change my name back. Pisses me off. Stupid marriage and stupid XM!!

Remember how Ginny found a new boyfriend a few months ago? Well, she broke up with him while I was out of town. I knew she was planning on it and I'm glad that she did. It's a long story as to what happened, but my opinion is that this guy wants more of a "mom" than a girlfriend. She told me right before I left town that she just needed some time without boys. I thought that was a good idea. Then I get a text from her after I've been gone about a week that she had a date that night! Um... what? Turns out she had signed up for a dating website and had gotten a date. In the last few weeks she's had several dates with four different guys! She says she's just having fun and she's not looking for a relationship. I'm not sure I believe her, but whatever. What gets to me is that I signed up for the same dating website about six months ago (I've since taken my profile down) and the only men I heard from were ones who were just looking for sex and most of them were illiterate. So for Ginny to just get all these dates right off the bat... it really, really sucks. I haven't said anything to Ginny about it, because I don't want to make her feel bad and it's not like it's her fault. But it's really discouraging. It just depresses that crap out of me.

So... a really crappy week. I asked Jim to come over again on Thursday for another massage. Some people shop when they're depressed. Some people eat (which I do some anyway). I get mostly naked and have someone rub me. I figure there are worse ways to cope!

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2 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you had a bad week. The stuff you had to do would certainly touch a nerve with you as it reminded you of a painful part of your past.

As for your friend with the 4 dates...while it is not entirely impossible, based on the experiences of others and myself that I hear and read, she may not be being entirely honest with you. Who cares! Give yourself some credit for remaining true to yourself. At least you are not trying to be something you are not.

Try to think of each activity as one step closer to bringing you back closer to who you are. And if there are bumps along the road just remind yourself of your goal. Vent at anytime....its your blog!

September 26, 2011 4:10 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you had a bad week. The stuff you had to do would certainly touch a nerve with you as it reminded you of a painful part of your past.

As for your friend with the 4 dates...while it is not entirely impossible, based on the experiences of others and myself that I hear and read, she may not be being entirely honest with you. Who cares! Give yourself some credit for remaining true to yourself. At least you are not trying to be something you are not.

Try to think of each activity as one step closer to bringing you back closer to who you are. And if there are bumps along the road just remind yourself of your goal. Vent at anytime....its your blog!

September 26, 2011 4:10 PM  

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