Thursday, August 29, 2013

I don't know what will happen next

A few posts ago, I mentioned my friend and "big brother" Andrew.  Since that relationship has already been covered, I won't do it again now.

When I first got back to Ohio, I was talking to Andrew and another guy at church one evening.  One of them asked how long I was going to be in this area.  I said, "Until I find a job."  Andrew said it was too bad that I couldn't stick around because he was going to be setting up a warehouse type of thing here for the company that he works for and I could be the office person there for him.  I remember thinking ,"Yeah, like we need to put up with each other every day!"  I may have even said something like that out loud.

I didn't think any more about it until maybe six weeks ago.  Since nothing was happening on the Lexington job front, I asked Andrew if there was anything I could start doing for him now, either working from home or working at his dining room table (since that's often where he's working).  I said it could just be on as "as needed" basis, and it might help give him an idea of what to look for when he's ready to hire someone permanently as well as giving him an idea of what all that person could do.  He said, "Let me think about it," which was pretty much the response I expected.  He never said anything more about it.  I didn't bring it up again because I didn't want to be a pest about it and I just figured he was too chicken to come back and say no to me directly.

Then last night I got to church early because Mom and I had eaten dinner out and we were finished early.  I was sitting there talking to another lady when Andrew sat down in the pew behind us.  At a pause in our conversation he said, "So, do you wanna come work for me?"  Um... okay?  I was a little caught off guard, but started asking questions about the job as well as the pay and benefits.  I won't bother going into what all Andrew said because at this point, none of this is definite.  Definitely not definite.  But it does look like a real possibility.

He did say that he was telling his boss that he's got the perfect person for the job, meaning me.  I said, "Well I appreciate your confidence in me considering that you have no idea what kind of job I can do."  He said, "The hardest part of the job is going to be dealing with the guys, and I know you can handle that."  The company he works for is a certain type of construction, so I suspect that just about everyone I'd be working with/for would be male.  I chuckled and said, "Putting up with you and your brothers was kind of a dry run for this, wasn't it?"  He laughed and said yes.  The funny thing is that one of Andrew's brothers also works for this company, under Andrew, so I'd be working with him as well!

So... I have no idea what happens next.  The warehouse space here in Ohio hasn't actually been leased yet, although Andrew said his boss has the paperwork for it.  He said they're looking at getting things going October 1st, but that he was thinking I might be able to start doing some stuff (at his dining room table) in September.  This would be a brand new position, of course, so I have no idea what all he has in mind for me to do.  It sounds like he intends for it to be a full-time job, but if it's not, then I can certainly work for him while I keep looking for something else, but I can't stay permanently.  I'm also not convinced that staying in my hometown permanently would be that great.  Maybe, because there's a lot of things I like about here, but maybe not.  I already know that if I stayed here, I'd have to lay some ground rules for Mom.  It would certainly be easier to move into my own place because I could stay with her a bit longer to save up money for furniture and such before moving.

I keep debating in my head about whether or not this is a good idea.  I mean, I was really looking forward to moving to Lexington.  But I haven't had a single interview or anything there.  And since I've only been there a couple times, it's not like I really know what it'd be like.  Although everyone I talk to about it always says how much they like it and what a nice area it is.  Then again, if this is going to be a job that I like, working for a solid company, why not stay for that?  I had actually been thinking not too long ago that it'd be nice to get a job where I'm working with more men than women, because (sadly) I think men are often easier to work with and for.  Can you see how I keep going back and forth on this?

At this point, really, all I can do is just be patient and see what happens.  He may come back and tell me that it's only going to be a part-time job or that it's full-time, but the pay wouldn't be enough for me to live on.  I already told him that if the pay is too low, I can't take the job, because what's the point of taking a job that won't pay enough for me to live off of?  Anyway, this might change my whole plan of moving to KY or it might not change anything.

I have no idea.

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Monday, August 12, 2013

This just bugs me (venting ahead)

There's a girl I know who we'll call Kris.  She's about ten years younger than I am and we went to the same church here in Ohio, where my mom and her parents still go.  Kris just completed grad school in May and has a job at a school in a different state as a speech language pathologist.  She's got a nice apt there.  Sounds like a nice place to be in life, right?

Not for Kris.  At least, not entirely.  I've never been all that close to her, but even I know how badly she wants to get married and have kids.  Something about the way she's presenting it is just annoying the crap out of me.  Like maybe she's getting desperate.  (Already!!)  Her post yesterday on FB was this:

I have thus far noticed 2 disadvantages to being single and living on my own: 1. I often can't get my new jars of salsa open and 2. I am forced to face my fear and kill all unwanted spiders myself.

Today's post was a picture of her dinner (because we all care?) along with this caption:

Dinner time! Sauteed shrimp, cucumbers, and squash, and steamed rice! All from Aldi and all super reasonable! ‪#‎futurehousewife‬ ‪#‎masterchef‬

That one wouldn't have bothered me so much (other than wondering why we all need to know what she's having for dinner) except for the housewife tag.  Ugh.

I have good friends who are stay at home moms, like Meat.  I've had a friend tell me when we were teens that all she really wanted to be was a wife and a mom.  It's not that I hold it against women if that's what they want in life and are able to have that.  There's just something about the way that Kris is making these posts that make me want to smack her upside the head!

OK, venting over.

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Friday, August 02, 2013

I miss my life. Or maybe just my sanity.

Not much to report from here, sadly.  Still not one word from any of the many jobs that I've applied to in Lexington.  It's still discouraging, but I can't imagine changing course too much.  I've thought about what it would be like to stay in this area, since there are several things I like about being here.  But the thought of living this close to my mom just fills me with dread.  I've long said that my mom and I have a pretty good relationship and I firmly believe that the reason for that is because we don't live too close to each other.  I think she'd be fine with it; I'd be the one to lose my mind.

I also can't imagine lowering my standards much in terms of what kind of job I'll do or what kind of pay I'm willing to accept.  At least half of the jobs that I find for that area pay several dollars less per hour than what I was making in Edmonton.  (My jobs there were all salary, not hourly, but I know approximately what I was making per hour.)  Now, the cost of living in Lexington is lower, but not that much lower.  And I'm not terribly keen on having a lower quality of life just to live there.  There are definitely jobs that pay what I'm looking for.  I just have to be patient, I guess.

If I adjust my plan at all, I'd probably aim to move to Louisville instead of Lexington, although from the bit of research that I've done, the job market and cost of living don't seem all that different from Lexington.  So there doesn't seem to be any overwhelming reason to change course.

Anyway, I think living with Mom is getting to me.  Actually, I know it is.  I can't tell whether or not it's bugging her.  I think for the most part, it's not.  Which is how it should be, I guess, since this is her house and all.  But, oh boy, do I miss having my own place!!  I miss everything about it, truly.  I even find that for the last week or so, I'm getting annoyed with a lot of people.  I don't act on it, and most of it is stuff that would annoy me anyway, really, but it just feels more so right now.  I'm trying to spend a little more time "out" when Mom is home, and then stay home when she's at work or other places.  I'm not sure it's enough, though.  And I can't even blame it on PMS right now!

I'm just so very, very ready to find a permanent job and move on.

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