I really know how to pick 'em
I don't have a friend with benefits. I don't have a friend. By default, Mason is still my coworker.
Rather than trying to explain it, I'll just share the texts we've exchanged. What I've put in italics are my asides, not part of the texts.
17 June (5 days after our evening together)
Suzy: Good morning! I came last night thinking about your cock. ;-)
(Yes, I really am that bold and brazen sometimes. I'm such a hussy.)
Suzy: Sorry if that's more than you wanted to know.
18 June
Suzy: I may have told you wrong about your break. If you want to work over the 4th of July you might be able to, although it'll probably mean working with Jason (a crew leader than Mason doesn't like). Then we're bringing everyone here after the 4th for a day or 2. So you could start your break after that if you wanted.
Mason: OK. Sounds great, I'll send the email tonight. (The guys are required to submit their break requests via email.)
Suzy: How was your day?
Mason: Extremely long
Mason: Need sleep
Suzy: Alright, I won't bug ya. Sweet dreams. :-)
Mason: Not bugging me, night
Suzy: Can I ask if I weirded you out by sending you that earlier text?
Mason: No I had to delete it quick cuz my kid opened it and was going to start reading it. (He was on the road for work, but was in the same area as where his 6 year old daughter lives, so I guess she was visiting him?)
Suzy: Oh crap! Sorry.
Mason: It's ok I got to it on time
Mason: Thankfully
Suzy: Well, I hope you have good memories you can use when you feel like it. ;-)
(no response)
Suzy: Sorry. Night.
23 June
Suzy: Did you ever send the email about your break? I haven't seen it.
24 June
Suzy: You're pretty quiet lately. Are you doing OK?
30 June (today)
Suzy: Mason, I don't know what's going on since I haven't heard a word from you. If you don't want anything more to do with me, that's fine. All I ask is that you keep everything to yourself.
I haven't gotten a response at this point. That could be because he's been working all day; these guys do work some long hours, especially during the summer. But my guess is that I won't get a response. Originally, I wasn't going to text him again after asking if he was OK. It seemed pretty clear that I was being ignored, so I was just going to leave it alone. But in planning for this upcoming meeting with all the guys in our division coming to town next week, I got this sudden thought of him opening his mouth and telling EVERYONE while they're all here. I would hate for Andrew to find out. And since Andrew's boss will also be here... that could be really bad and damage my professional reputation. Not to mention the rest of my life.
As I mentioned in my last post, I asked Mason some questions while he was here, including what he wanted going forward. That was when I got that strange answer about him not knowing and he didn't want to talk about it. He tends to be pretty honest and blunt, so I didn't think he was just BS'ing me then because he was sitting on my couch, although I wonder about it now. In any case, at that point, I told him that whatever conclusion he came to, I just wanted him to be honest with me. I just want to know what's going on. I don't know about you, dear readers, but I would always rather have the truth, even when it's painful, because at least then I know what I'm dealing with.
I always knew there was a chance that Mason would be done with me after one night. Given how my life usually goes, I kind of even expected it. I'm honestly not that bothered that that's how it's turned out. What really pisses me off is that he can't just be straight with me, and he's just ignoring me instead.
Jackass.
Rather than trying to explain it, I'll just share the texts we've exchanged. What I've put in italics are my asides, not part of the texts.
17 June (5 days after our evening together)
Suzy: Good morning! I came last night thinking about your cock. ;-)
(Yes, I really am that bold and brazen sometimes. I'm such a hussy.)
Suzy: Sorry if that's more than you wanted to know.
18 June
Suzy: I may have told you wrong about your break. If you want to work over the 4th of July you might be able to, although it'll probably mean working with Jason (a crew leader than Mason doesn't like). Then we're bringing everyone here after the 4th for a day or 2. So you could start your break after that if you wanted.
Mason: OK. Sounds great, I'll send the email tonight. (The guys are required to submit their break requests via email.)
Suzy: How was your day?
Mason: Extremely long
Mason: Need sleep
Suzy: Alright, I won't bug ya. Sweet dreams. :-)
Mason: Not bugging me, night
Suzy: Can I ask if I weirded you out by sending you that earlier text?
Mason: No I had to delete it quick cuz my kid opened it and was going to start reading it. (He was on the road for work, but was in the same area as where his 6 year old daughter lives, so I guess she was visiting him?)
Suzy: Oh crap! Sorry.
Mason: It's ok I got to it on time
Mason: Thankfully
Suzy: Well, I hope you have good memories you can use when you feel like it. ;-)
(no response)
Suzy: Sorry. Night.
23 June
Suzy: Did you ever send the email about your break? I haven't seen it.
24 June
Suzy: You're pretty quiet lately. Are you doing OK?
30 June (today)
Suzy: Mason, I don't know what's going on since I haven't heard a word from you. If you don't want anything more to do with me, that's fine. All I ask is that you keep everything to yourself.
I haven't gotten a response at this point. That could be because he's been working all day; these guys do work some long hours, especially during the summer. But my guess is that I won't get a response. Originally, I wasn't going to text him again after asking if he was OK. It seemed pretty clear that I was being ignored, so I was just going to leave it alone. But in planning for this upcoming meeting with all the guys in our division coming to town next week, I got this sudden thought of him opening his mouth and telling EVERYONE while they're all here. I would hate for Andrew to find out. And since Andrew's boss will also be here... that could be really bad and damage my professional reputation. Not to mention the rest of my life.
As I mentioned in my last post, I asked Mason some questions while he was here, including what he wanted going forward. That was when I got that strange answer about him not knowing and he didn't want to talk about it. He tends to be pretty honest and blunt, so I didn't think he was just BS'ing me then because he was sitting on my couch, although I wonder about it now. In any case, at that point, I told him that whatever conclusion he came to, I just wanted him to be honest with me. I just want to know what's going on. I don't know about you, dear readers, but I would always rather have the truth, even when it's painful, because at least then I know what I'm dealing with.
I always knew there was a chance that Mason would be done with me after one night. Given how my life usually goes, I kind of even expected it. I'm honestly not that bothered that that's how it's turned out. What really pisses me off is that he can't just be straight with me, and he's just ignoring me instead.
Jackass.