Saturday, September 20, 2014

I am going to hell

It's recently become clear to me that, despite my best efforts, I am really not the person I thought I was or keep trying to be.  To be more specific, I am not the Christian that I should be.


I'm not going to go into much detail at this time, partly because I think it's still hard to admit that I'm such a willing participant in this, but I have very recently begun another friends with benefits relationship.  The part that makes it so bad?  He's married.  His wife currently lives a few states away, but will be moving here in a few months to join him.  At which point our relationship will go back to being just friends.

I will say this much: this current FWB relationship is very different from the attempted FWB I had with Mason.  A large part of it is that I feel like this one is an actual friendship.  Now that I'm a few months removed from my one encounter with Mason, it feels like it was nothing.  One time together and, while we're still perfectly fine as co-workers, I wouldn't really even consider him a friend at this point.  This time just feels like more.

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Tuesday, September 09, 2014

Still around

Dear readers, I'm sorry that I've been so bad about blogging lately.  Part of it is laziness, part of it is not always having something to say, and part of it is just not wanting to be on the computer once I get home from work after being on the computer all day while I'm there.

This is just a wee post to say that I'm not purposefully neglecting this blog.  It's time for bed, so I won't be writing much now, but I will return soon to let my fingers babble.